It is really funny how I was an emotionless person and right am now an emotional wreck. It all happened so fast. The emotions of everything today are so overwhleming that I feel as if I am about to break. I feel that I am falling into a bottomless pit of darkness who cannot be saved. Right now I would kill to be in a warm tranquil forest in the middle of nowhere with no one. To be with no worries and as long as I had what I needed I would be a lot more calm, peaceful, and happy then I am right now.
Today has been by far the most stressful day I have had in my entire high school career. All the assignments I have, the HUGE chance I have of getting below 70% in English, the disapointment my arts going to be. It all adds up, with other foolish things I am not mentioning. It is pathetic. I don't know what the heck I am doing. I am so confused and lost, and have no one there to guide me, and to tell me it is all going to work out. I am in a rut. A really big rut.
Anyway...I still can't stand getting to emotional-letting out emotions has always been against the rules. Exams start on Thursday. I have more then 5 assignments to complete, and why was Jen in our grad photo is she graduated last year? What a bitch....she is taking it away from the Grade 12s. Anyway I am going to do some homework now.....I will hopefully get it done before school tomorrow. Fuck, I feel almost as if I am about to cry. Next semester will be better--it has to be....anyway I will stop babbling and wasting people's time.
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